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Back To What I Was [Chapter #3]   
02:28pm 15/10/2008
 
mood: awake
Sprained my elbow - How do you do that? - and so I've got a week off work. Decided to catch up on some much-needed writing while I'm off and... disabled.


Title: Back To What I Was
Chapter: 3/?
Author: Desultory Speech
Genre: Horror, thriller, psychological, angst
Rating: Teen - 14A. Some parts (later chapters) may be rated for swearing, violence, gore, general uncomfortable subjects.
Pairing: N/A
Synopsis: Recovering from a traumatic event, JaeJoong is forced to struggle to maintain who he is and used to be, all the while being re-instituted into public school. The struggles of adolescence, the woes of being socially awkward; JaeJoong fights them all whilst rediscovering his passion for art and expression.
Perhaps in the wrong ways.
Comments: I am in no way affiliated with DBSK, Super Junior or SM Entertainment, nor do I know or associate with any of the people in question. I'm not even Korean. This is a work of pure fiction; any similarities drawn between people, places and events are purely by coincidence. This is not meant to offend. The views and opinions in this story are not necessarily the views and opinions of the author. Directed at a mature youth audience. I apologize for grammar errors and spelling mistakes.
Poster credits go to bucket_of_tsuki, for being such a dear and putting up with me. ^^' Thank you, Jake-chan~

Forwards
Prologue
Chapter #1
Chapter #2

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Spontaneous Action (Three-Shot)   
11:23pm 12/07/2008
  Oh my, what a crappy chapter. I'm going to go pretend I didn't write this now. For some reason, stories always look better when written in a notebook...

Title: Spontaneous Action PART #1 The Middle
Chapters: 2/3
Author: Desultory Speech/Cillisian Thatcher
Genre: Romance, humor
Rating: Teen
Pairing: JaeJoongxJunsu, JaeSu
Synopsis: Everything about you was so aloof, so endearing, that I couldn't help but to love you. We were an odd pair; you, dressed down in black and spouting of quotes like they were a new language, and me, sporting athletic attire and ranting about soccer stars... and yet, we worked.
Comments: I am in no way affiliated with DBSK, Super Junior or SM Entertainment, nor do I know or associate with any of the people in question. I'm not even Korean. This is a work of pure fiction; any similarities drawn between people, places and events are purely by coincidence. This is not meant to offend. The views and opinions in this story are not necessarily the views and opinions of the author. Directed at a mature youth audience. I apologize for grammar errors and spelling mistakes.
Dedicated to violetgurl33, because she requested it, and is just generally reall awesome.

Story © Cillisian Thatcher/Diese Stifte/DesultorySpeech, July 12th, 2008

Part #1 - The Beginning

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Back To What I Was [Chapter #2]   
09:56pm 11/07/2008
  This chapter is really, really horrid - like Goliath slinging mace horrid - as I've been tired from work and frustrated with my living situation. So, regretfully, I'm posting it and hoping none of you die too hard.

Title: Back To What I Was
Chapter: 2/?
Author: Desultory Speech
Genre: Horror, thriller, psychological, angst
Rating: Teen - 14A. Some parts (later chapters) may be rated for swearing, violence, gore, general uncomfortable subjects.
Pairing: N/A
Synopsis: Recovering from a traumatic event, JaeJoong is forced to struggle to maintain who he is and used to be, all the while being re-instituted into public school. The struggles of adolescence, the woes of being socially awkward; JaeJoong fights them all whilst rediscovering his passion for art and expression.
Perhaps in the wrong ways.
Comments: I am in no way affiliated with DBSK, Super Junior or SM Entertainment, nor do I know or associate with any of the people in question. I'm not even Korean. This is a work of pure fiction; any similarities drawn between people, places and events are purely by coincidence. This is not meant to offend. The views and opinions in this story are not necessarily the views and opinions of the author. Directed at a mature youth audience. I apologize for grammar errors and spelling mistakes.
Poster credits go to bucket_of_tsuki, for being such a dear and putting up with me. ^^' Thank you, Jake-chan~

Forwards
Prologue
Chapter #1


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Back To What I Was [Chapter #1]   
12:52am 07/07/2008
 
mood: exanimate
Title: Back To What I Was
Chapter: 1/?
Author: Desultory Speech
Genre: Horror, thriller, psychological, angst
Rating: Teen - 14A. Some parts may be rated for swearing, violence, gore, general uncomfortable subjects.
Pairing: N/A
Synopsis: Recovering from a traumatic event, JaeJoong is forced to struggle to maintain who he is and used to be, all the while being re-instituted into public school. The struggles of adolescence, the woes of being socially awkward; JaeJoong fights them all whilst rediscovering his passion for art and expression.
Perhaps in the wrong ways.
Comments: I am in no way affiliated with DBSK, Super Junior or SM Entertainment, nor do I know or associate with any of the people in question. I'm not even Korean. This is a work of pure fiction; any similarities drawn between people, places and events are purely by coincidence. This is not meant to offend. The views and opinions in this story are not necessarily the views and opinions of the author. Directed at a mature youth audience. I apologize for grammar errors and spelling mistakes.
Poster credits go to bucket_of_tsuki, for being such a dear and putting up with me. ^^' Thank you, Jake-chan~


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Story © Cillisian Thatcher/Diese Stifte, July 3rd, 2008.
 
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Back To What I Was [Forwards + Prologue]   
01:09pm 04/07/2008
 
mood: complacent
Post post post~ I now premeire, my chapter story! YAY.

Title: Back To What I Was
Chapter: 0/?
Author: Desultory Speech
Genre: Horror, thriller, psychological, angst
Rating: Teen - 14A. Some parts may be rated for swearing, violence, gore, general uncomfortable subjects.
Pairing: N/A
Synopsis: Recovering from a traumatic event, JaeJoong is forced to struggle to maintain who he is and used to be, all the while being re-instituted into public school. The struggles of adolescence, the woes of being socially awkward; JaeJoong fights them all whilst rediscovering his passion for art and expression.
Perhaps in the wrong ways.
Comments: I am in no way affiliated with DBSK, Super Junior or SM Entertainment, nor do I know or associate with any of the people in question. I'm not even Korean. This is a work of pure fiction; any similarities drawn between people, places and events are purely by coincidence. This is not meant to offend. The views and opinions in this story are not necessarily the views and opinions of the author. Directed at a mature youth audience. I apologize for grammar errors and spelling mistakes.
Poster credits go to bucket_of_tsuki, for being such a dear and putting up with me. ^^' Thank you, Jake-chan~

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Story © Cillisian Thatcher/Diese Stifte, July 4th, 2008.
 
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Bit Of An Update; Chaptered Story; What's Going On With SA?!   
08:55pm 29/06/2008
 
mood: cheerful
Hello livejournal! Sorry for my short-lived-and-yet-so-very-detrimental-absence! Work has been a bit hustle-bustle and I've had no real time to do anything other than complain to my peers over cheap coffee about my supervisor, (who is a real bitch, by the way.) So, for a bit of an update, I'm here to inform you all that I'm still bitter and alive (Oh what a lovely mix) and I'm still managing to write and read a fair bit. Because of this, I have some things to be posted. Oh, ah, but... I just moved to a new apartment complex! Ah! The thrill of life! It would be more of a thrill if my ex-roomate hadn't kicked me out (Boyfriend troubles that ended up being directed onto me; I don't really care, she was a bit of a demanding haggard of a woman anywho) but I suppose one can't win them all! My new block is a bit more downtown, in a part that used to be urban but now is a bit more forgotten, so I'm absolutely pumped! All the little indie cafe's and bookstores and CD shops and resturants and boutiques are down here, and if any of you've caught on at all, I really love my indie culture. Also, there are some lovely Chinese exchange students that are rooming just down the hall, and there is nothing better to wake up to in the morning than a few really beautiful Chinese boys shouting at eachother in Mandarin. (Speaking of such, one of them talked to me. I don't know if he thought I could speak mandarin, but he was just spirting it off in my direction, so I mumbled a high-pitched 'Ni hao ma' and ran back into my room, completely forgetting about taking the garbage downstairs, which had been my original purpose.) In any case, because of the move, my computer and internet were both disconnected, and I just mustered up the courage to ask one of those aforementioned Chinese boys to help me hook it up, regardless of the fact that I could probably have figured it out on my own. He was nice enough, but, again, spoke absolutely no English. I got by on the small amount of Mandarin I'd learnt in highschool, though.

With this new apartment comes my new roomate, Jeana, who is a total sweetheart and I love her to painfully small, tiny, little bits. She had enough heart to let me stay until I worked out my life, and thus far, it looks as if I'll be staying for a while. Apparently she doesn't mind, but I forced her to let me pay half the rent. Rent rent rent~ Something I can't pay but am going to work my but off trying.

But no one cares about my actual life, right? Anyone stalking my journal just wants to read the DBSK fanfictions I pop out like a icecube machine. Well, here we are. I have to tell you of some things.

Firstly; JaeSu Three-Shot 'Spontaneous Action' What happened?
Um, nothing, really. I've got the second chapter written out and everything. I just haven't typed it up yet and so I am unable to post it, as it is not in pixel form and so does not compute. (Oh ho ho, Cillisian made a funny!) Again, I just got my computer (from the stone-age) hooked up again, so I will be typing it up whenever I get free time, which, thus far, I do not seem to possess very often. That saig, lets move onto the next little thing I have to tell you.

Secondly; Is Cillisian Writing A New Chapter Story?
To put it lightly... yes. Yes I am. I've finally decided I like a plot idea enough to write it out as a story. It's going to be bloody long, but, like the jackanape I am, I've already posted the forwards and prologue on winglin.net... I was offered this magnificent opportunity to enter it into a writing challege at Tokiro.com (http://www.freewebs.com/to-ki-ro/) but, I disgress, I don't see it being done in time. Anyone else should really look at entering, though! It seems like great fun.

So, yes. That has been my life thus far. I'll post the beginning of this chapter story soonish, but for now, I leave you with this. It's about two in the morning and the caffeen in my system is wearing down fast...

I shall be 'hitting the sack', so to speak, now. Good night, everyone!
 
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Annyong [Lyrics]   
06:19pm 18/06/2008
  Looking at me now, am I what you thought I was?
Jealous and immature; a useless callouse
A theif that stalks the night and bleeds from the eyes
Someone whose not afraid; mean and so consice.

Tell me what you want; that's what I'll try to be.
Theres a darkness that makes my arms so cold
It's hard to close my eyes; can hardly sleep a wink
It gets worse when your friends take their coats and leave...

You don't know how it goes

It's mysterious how everything goes wrong
A thousand drops of rain can make you numb
Do you really think want to be this way?
Ah, no

You say you don't want to do this and that your sorry
Don't worry, it's okay, I'm use to disappointing everybody
Lay down a list of what I've done; I'll read it
It'll hurt, I won't lie, but I'll hold my tears and take it.

You don't know how it hurts.

It's mysterious how everything went wrong
Words I could never deny long
I never wanted it to end this way
Ah ni...

Listen to what I say little eared boy
You were never someone I didn't like
By the time you're my age, I'll be long gone
And all you'll know is that I was there some point in time

You don't know how hard times makes it.

It's mysterious how everything went wrong
I never wanted this but somehow it's my fault
I'm sorry but it's time I claim my role
Five years, oh
Mysterious; where is that blue eyed girl?
She was innocent and pure as winter snow
But she's dead now; and that's something I know
Annyong.


Story © Cillisian Thatcher/Diese Stifte/DesultorySpeech, June 18th, 2008
 
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In The Absence Of Wind [One-Shot]   
07:53pm 11/06/2008
 
mood: artistic
Wow, something that doesn't feature JaeJoong for a change~ But he's mentioned!

Most likely going to be near IMPOSSIBLE to understand, but... uh... ...yes. :D

Title: In The Absence Of Wind
Words: ????
Author: Desultory Speech
Genre: Angst; prose. Themse of Death.
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Implications of JaeMin, YooMin, JaeChun.
Synopsis: Tear obscure my eyes as I tear him down; the rope is weak and doesn't take much more weight to snap.


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I Never Claimed Much Of Anything   
03:09pm 01/06/2008
 
mood: exanimate
You aren’t pretty and you aren’t smart.

True, but I tried to be for you.

You aren’t getting anywhere with your half-assed smiles.

But if I showed you how I really felt, would you still stick around?

You aren’t as original as you say you are.

Baby, your mistaken, as I’ve never claimed much of anything. Except you, of course, and even that was open to debate.

And debate they did.

Against it, for it; everyone had something else to say about our relationship; our relationship. They said everything they had no right to say, and that didn't help us. No, it'd didn't help at all. Starting off in a rocky relationship is never fun, but without the approval of family and friends, it's harder than usual.

You'd smile at me like it was something else, but I knew what was going on. You couldn't convince me otherwise.

They hate me and I know it; there's no use lying.

Though I did, to myself, for a while. Hoping that things would change; I was foolish, and the fool always gets what he deserves. And, in my case, I deserved a broken heart and the smell of vanilla colonge on my stained bed sheets.

I want to hate you.

But I love you too much to.

Sometimes I wish things were differen't, but I can't change what happened, and I can't change those horrible things I said to you, however untrue they were.

And I can't change my heart, nor can I the beats that rivot it for you.

Today would have been our two year anniversary, had be stayed together; had we endured it. Had you not decided you wanted to feel someone else between your legs, whispering your name breathily into your ear.

Fuck, I was always too faithful.
 
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The Conversation That Led To Sex [Drabble]   
10:55pm 26/05/2008
  Requested by my cousin Haille, who wants lots of fluffy JaeChun love.

Title: The Conversation That Led To Sex
Words: 1 753
Author: Desultory Speech
Genre: Fluff...?
Rating: Mature, just to be careful.
Pairing: JaeChun
Synopsis: See Title.
Comments: ...*cough*

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Spontaneous Action (Three-Shot)   
05:29pm 26/05/2008
 
mood: ecstatic
I dedicate this to violetgurl33 for 1) requesting as such, and 2) thanking her for reading everything so far!

Title: Spontaneous Action PART #1 The Beginning
Chapters: 1/3
Author: Desultory Speech/Cillisian Thatcher
Genre: Prose, Romance
Rating: Teen
Pairing: JaeJoongxJunsu, JaeSu
Synopsis: Everything about you was so aloof, so endearing, that I couldn't help but to love you. We were an odd pair; you, dressed down in black and spouting of quotes like they were a new language, and me, sporting athletic attire and ranting about soccer stars... and yet, we worked.
Comments: I am in no way affiliated with DBSK, Super Junior or SM Entertainment, nor do I know or associate with any of the people in question. I'm not even Korean. This is a work of pure fiction; any similarities drawn between people, places and events are purely by coincidence. This is not meant to offend. The views and opinions in this story are not necessarily the views and opinions of the author. Directed at a mature youth audience. I apologize for grammar errors and spelling mistakes.


Story © Cillisian Thatcher/Diese Stifte/DesultorySpeech, May 26th, 2008

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A Lot Of Things (One-Shot)   
02:28pm 20/05/2008
  CURSES! She's back!

Yes, that's right; I'm posting again... someone shoot me before I embarrass myself.

Title: A Lot Of Things
Words: 2 515
Author: Desultory Speech/Cillisian Thatcher
Genre: Angst, Prose
Rating: Teen
Pairing: ChangminxOC
Synopsis: I know what I'll be doing in the next twenty-four hours; do you?
Comments: am in no way affiliated with DBSK, Super Junior or SM Entertainment, nor do I know or associate with any of the people in question. I'm not even Korean. This is a work of pure fiction; any similarities drawn between people, places and events are purely by coincidence. This is not meant to offend. The views and opinions in this story are not necessarily the views and opinions of the author. Directed at a mature youth audience. I apologize for grammar errors and spelling mistakes.

Story © Cillisian Thatcher/Diese Stifte/DesultorySpeech, May 20th, 2008

First off, I will awake with the sun in my eyes...Collapse )
 
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Kisses Aren't Contracts [Drabble]   
09:38pm 19/05/2008
  Cross posted on Winglin under the name 'DieseStife'

Thanks for the message, mrs.. urm...Tsuki, should I say? I hope you can make me a layout! No hard feelings if you find yourself unable to. I want to thank you for trying, regardless of the turnout.

Title: Kisses Aren't Contracts
Words: 1 413
Author: Desultory Speech/Cillisian Thatcher
Genre: Angst, Prose
Rating: Teen
Pairing: JaeJoong/other member of your choice (I don't specify)
Synopsis: You should have learned it sooner; it's your fault you didn't.
Comments: I am in no way affiliated with DBSK, Super Junior or SM Entertainment, nor do I know or associate with any of the people in question. I'm not even Korean. This is a work of pure fiction; any similarities drawn between people, places and events are purely by coincidence. This is not meant to offend. The views and opinions in this story are not necessarily the views and opinions of the author. Directed at a mature youth audience. I apologize for grammar errors and spelling mistakes.

Story © Cillisian Thatcher/Diese Stifte/DesultorySpeech, May 19th, 2008

Close your eyes and let the emotions enwrap you...Collapse )
 
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Prepare Yourselves Accordingly (+Poem)   
08:15pm 16/05/2008
 

For a brief intro of myself (since I have decided to instead post my favourite authors/musicians/books in my profile) - I am an author(ess) who enjoys a vasy majority of things. I go by the pseudonym Cillisian Thatcher; no you will not know my real name. I hate people, but if you'd prefer to be one I like, feel free to message me.

Past all that, I have nothing else to say, other than that I would appreciate comments on my fanfictions.

And since I can't NOT give you guys something to read, here you are; POEM, WTF?!

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-Cillisian.
 
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Sweeter Than Apples (One-Shot)   
10:34pm 14/05/2008
  Decided to actually try my hand at this yaoi business.
Implications set a side, I think I can really improve upon my tolerance to homosexuality if I get used to the idea of some of my most revered idols (DBSK) being as such.
I didn't ask you to make sense of my beliefs - I'm feeling hebetudinous... perhaps my logic isn't fuctioning correctly...

Title: Sweeter Than Apples
Chapters: Oneshot
Author: Desultory Speech/Cillisian Thatcher
Genre: Angst, Drama, Romance
Rating: Teen
Pairing: YooChunxJunsu, YooSu - MILD
Synopsis: I can’t say it isn’t wrong, because I know it is. To betray you; you, who always loved me so unconditionally… it’s wrong. So wrong. So wrong that I, rightfully so, should be thrown into a pit of never ending torment and misery. That you should be let out of the gates that make you suffer, free from me and my tainted touch; free from me and my venomous allure.
Comments: I am in no way affiliated with DBSK, Super Junior or SM Entertainment, nor do I know or associate with any of the people in question. I'm not even Korean. This is a work of pure fiction; any similarities drawn between people, places and events are purely by coincidence. This is not meant to offend. The views and opinions in this story are not necessarily the views and opinions of the author. Directed at a mature youth audience. Implicative material, homosexual themes. May be uncomfortable to some readers. Nothing R or M rated.
I apologize for grammar errors and spelling mistakes.

Story © Cillisian Thatcher/Diese Stifte/DesultorySpeech, May 14th, 2008
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Hey There, Refraction (Poem)   
10:20pm 14/05/2008
  I'm posting a poem again; Uh. Yes.

I hope you all know that the only reason I post poems is because I'm running out of pre-written drabbles and one shots to post, so I'm hoping to prolong it a bit. ..heh.

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You Are What You Love (One-Shot)   
05:09pm 12/05/2008
  Was written quite some time ago at an ungodly hour; I had no particular plot in mind, but I really wanted to try to write a lemon. I didn't really succeed... meh. I tried.
Decided to post for fun. I don't care if anyone reads it or not; it's the thought that counts.
Cross-posted at WingLin.net under the pen name Diese Stifte


Title: You Are What You Love
Chapters: Oneshot
Author: Desultory Speech/Cillisian Thatcher
Genre: Angst, Prose, Romance
Rating: Teen - Mature
Pairing: JaeJoongxYunho, Jaeho, Yunjae, One-sided
Synopsis: It's the best sort of fun when your lifetime infatuation happens to be your best friends brother; even better when he happens to be gay. Even better more so when this said lifetime infatuation begins to depend solely on no one else but you.
Comments: I am in no way affiliated with DBSK, Super Junior or SM Entertainment, nor do I know or associate with any of the members or people in question. I'm not even Korean. This is a work of pure fiction; any similarities drawn between people, places and events are purely by coincidence. This is not meant to offend. The views and opinions in this story are not necessarily the views and opinions of the author. Directed to an older youth audience. Not for anyone under eighteen. Swearing, mature themes, sexual content and suggestive material. Nothing graphic, but close enough.


Story © Cillisian Thatcher/Diese Stifte/DesultorySpeech, October 27th 2007

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Nightmare (Poem)   
11:42am 19/04/2008
 
Goal are what we all should have,
We strive to reach them and
Society builds on them.
Dreams are goals that turn too easy
And unrealistic and just don't seem
Like anything we can acheive.
Our future are a compilement of our
Unlikely hopes, and our dreams
Because it helps us accept it,
That nightmares are what construct
The day's of tomorrow.
The most realistic of bliss
We can obtain
Is tomorrow.
A nightmare.

© Cillisian Thatcher/Diese Stifte/DesultorySpeech, APRIL 19th, 2008
 
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What You Should Have Done (One-Shot)   
12:00am 18/04/2008
 
...I like JaeJoong crazy...

Title: What You Should Have Done
Words: 4 879
Author: Desultory Speech/Cillisian Thatcher
Genre: Angst, horror
Rating: N/A
Warning: Gore, blood, death.
Pairing: None
Synopsis: And suddenly there was a crowd of people, all laughing along with you and your friends, staring at me like I was some psycho stalker, bent on ruining your eighteenth birthday party. I heard whispers of ‘crazy’ and ‘freak’ in the crowd, people picking apart my appearance and attire simply because I wanted to go to my friends birthday party.
Comments: I am in no way affiliated with DBSK, Super Junior or SM Entertainment, nor do I know or associate with any of the people in question. I'm not even Korean. This is a work of pure fiction; any similarities drawn between people, places and events are purely by coincidence. This is not meant to offend. The views and opinions in this story are not necessarily the views and opinions of the author. Directed at a mature youth audience. I apologize for grammar errors and spelling mistakes.

Story © Cillisian Thatcher/Diese Stifte/DesultorySpeech, May 20th, 2008

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